Introducing my Spawn 3, Dylan Luis Fernandez!!!. He came in early on April 3rd weighing in at a impressive 5 pounds 7 ounces!!! Even though he was early he is doing great and I after having a home nurse come by the first week I was home my blood pressure has come down a good amount and I am doing fine! Everything kind of went fast so I didn't even have time to share our baby shower so here is a quick peek at all the fun that we had celebrating Lil' Man!
So here it is:
Our Lil'Man baby shower was a success! I had friends and family around me and it was great to just lay back and have fun! At that point I had not been feeling well and I had a lot of aches and pains so it was so much fun to have the party and have my family take part and take pictures with the mustaches and it was an all around great time!
Now I am a mother of three! I have been home for about a week now and its the longest I have been home full time in a very long time! It has been an adjustment. But little by little we are getting a routine and it is great that Layla is in school for most of the day. So I just have Ava and Dylan. Dylan??? Just saying his name is crazy to me! It has been just a long road, and he is here! I am so grateful that everything worked out! Our delivery was drama free and he had no issues! We are truly blessed and now we are a complete family!
That lil' lady right there is going to be the big 5 in April!!!! I can't believe it! Did I mention I am due in April and my other lil' lady's birthday is also in April!!!! I really try to make every birthday they have special! Due to the fact that this is her BIG 5TH BIRTHDAY!!!! We are going to take her out with her cousins and have a great day out bowling!!! She is so excited!
The thing is... I am due April 21st and this Birthday Extravaganza is April 13th. Can you see where I am going with this!!!! I was early for both girls what if I am in labor or in the hospital with Spawn #3. Can I multitask my labor??? LOL I really want to be there for her and I really want her to have a birthday that is great and she has a great time!I booked the birthday and I designated a substitute hostess just in case I am in the hospital or have to stay home with a newborn!!! I have even gone to the extreme of telling my husband that it doesn't matter if I am in labor leave me in the hospital and go celebrate with Layla!!! (Is that too much!!!!) That is what made my friend coin the term "multitasking my labor"!!! I just love that!
Thing is that lately I been feeling like I am wearing myself too thin! I have my two girls, my husband, my job and our home! I am 35 weeks pregnant, I have to go to fetal monitoring twice a week on top of high risk doctors and my regular doctors and I am going to school! I really feel like everyday is something new and then, to top it off I feel like I am letting some people down. Like no matter what I do, its not enough!
I know its impossible to make everyone happy. And really that should not be my priority but the thing is when you are being told that you not coming up to snuff, you tend to question yourself, especially when you are an emotional pregnant mess! LOL. I know I am being unrealistic with my expectations of myself. I know I am doing a lot and doing a great job! Just today at this moment I feel deflated and the idea of missing a birthday for one of my kids just makes me feel like I need to do everything to make sure that if I have to miss it I am not missed! UGH am I making any sense. I feel like I am rambling.
Hopefully this feeling will go away! I only have a few more weeks to go and he will be here with us! We are doing great! He is doing awesome, weighing in at 5 pounds 7 ounces at the last fetal monitoring appointment so he is already on his way to being bigger at birth than my daughters!
I am a big fan of Modern Family and this whole birthday situation reminds me of the episode that Gloria is in labor but tries to hold it in because it's her son's birthday!!! I would totally try and do that!!! I couldn't find that clip but I did find a montage clip of all of ABC favorite moments of her pregnancy!!! So here it goes enjoy!
So these are what my Mondays and Thursdays have been looking like for the past two weeks! That's when my doctor thought it would be best to start some twice a week fetal monitoring! See when I gave birth to my darling little angry bird Ava, after the delivery they were not able to get my blood pressure back down so I was put in a recovery room for a day and was not able to hold my newborn baby unless I had assistance and it was not a good first 24 hours for either of us! After that little episode with high blood pressure I was sent back to the doctors and my blood pressure was normal and stayed normal for a while until I got pregnant with Spawn #3. When I first started going to my appointments my blood pressure was either really high or normal so after three visits my doctor sent me to a high risk doctor, once I started going to her with no meds I was able to control my blood pressure and all seemed fine, I was discharged from the high risk doctor and continued along this pregnancy road.
Until about my 32th week, that's when the blood pressure came up again and when I went again to the high risk doctor, she started saying words like in danger of preeclampsia, and fetal monitoring, and 24 hour urine samples!!!! I was confused, depressed and straight up scared! So I took my marching orders like a good little patient and I started fetal monitoring twice a week!Basically they strap you to a fetal monitor for about 20 minutes to check the baby's movements and heart rate, they check your blood pressure and vitals and they check for swelling, then you go for a sonogram to make sure your fluid levels are good and the baby is looking good!
So far so good! And today my lovely technician gave me an awesome on my blood pressure!!! 116/70 which she said was the best I have had since I started going! So everything looks great with Spawn #3 and I am starting to feel much better every single day. Less tired and more optimistic that this pregnancy and this delivery will be just fine! I swear people I have had two kids already and I have had nightmares about this delivery! With all that has been going on I just feel like I am not ready for him!
But today with the great encouragement of the staff at Albert Einstein Hospital I feel like I have turned a page in this pregnancy at 34 weeks and a day in, I can finally breath in deep and take it all in! I am happy that I am OK and especially that he is OK! At first I was upset and stressed out that I had to do this twice a week, but now I feel relieved that everything is going all as planned and we can expect his arrival soon!
OMG!!!! HE WILL BE HERE IN A FEW SHORT WEEKS!!!!
I just feel like I haven't been able to take it all in! With all the doctors appointments, all the worrying and all the time doing other things, I haven't really stopped and enjoyed the fact that he will be here soon! So I am letting myself enjoy the fact that a bit of good news like "Awesome blood pressure reading" is sometimes Great news and I am going to relax and if I have to keep going to fetal monitoring till the day he is born then, that's what I have to do! We got this over here!!!! And besides I get a great snack for being a good little patient:
